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Depravity

When I look at you
I see all my hopes and dreams.
you make life possible
and give me a reason to breathe.
Although I thought I hated you

for the past and what you did.

Everything you say to me

replaces those evil themes.

Can't live without you

while I tried, I tried to play

Pretending Im not wishing

it will all work out someday

while you always have the upper hand

and i willingly followed through

you gotta give me something

i kinda need real proof.

I'm afriad to love you

and give you what I gave before

too much has happened

I thought we closed the final door

you makes promises to me, boy

are they sincere?

for how can I trust thee

after your record isn't clear.

This is more than just a idea

I am more than just your drug

If you finally see what you have lost

baby, im sorry but thats just tough.

Now you know how it feels to want

and wish and to not get

Fall down with the hurt

Shine down with regret
Fantasy is drowning out the reality
while you exhaust out your depravity
 
For a girl who found she needing nothing
 
and no one to keep her safe and sound.
 
Who are you to claim me
 
Who are you to win?
 
You had me once, you scathed me
 
and love has come and gone...
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