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When I get you alone...

So I guess I feel like I may be finally recovering.  It has been a long road and one that has been twisty and full of giants rocks blocking me from the path, having said that, I believe I can now look forward. 

I have never in my life been too happy being alone...until now.  I guess I just realized you can't always turn to others to solve your problems or make you feel happy.  Happiness comes from within.  I have been very unhappy inside for a very long time.  I fooled myself to thinking I was happy in and out by being in a relationship.  I was, I really was, but I think I was hiding from really finding who I was by investing everything in someone else.  Now that I am on my own after some depression and despair, I finally feel alone but in a good way.  No one expects anything from me, which usually makes me depressed because I don't like feeling unimportant and like no one needs me.  But this time it is good.  I don't have any energy to spend on anyone else right now.  As…