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Thursday, February 5, 2015

Trich: My Struggle is Still Here...

There are days when I forgot I have a problem.  I totally don't remember that I'm not like other people.  Yes lots of people play with their hair but with me it's different.  Today is tough.  This week was tough.  I have pulled out a lot of hairs this week.  Instead of punishing myself and being sad or feeling like everyone can see my imperfections, I am choosing to just STOP and take a breath and to be mindful.  Forgetting to be mindful is easy.  It's because it's so much easier not to pay attention to your impulses and to give in and to do what is comforting.

Playing with my hair, twirling, braiding have always been comforting to me since I was a little girl and it was never a REAL problem.  I believe that my anti-depressants changed the texture of my hair as medications tend to do.  So while my anxieties and depression was lifted my nuanced hair pulling began because my hair just felt different and I wanted to get rid of the ones that felt weird, different, bad, damaged.

This week has been bad.  And yes I am disappointed in myself.  I see all the tiny hairs that stand straight up and I have to use clear mascara to mat them down.  My scalp hurts actually from pulling too many good hairs from my part.  I hate that I can feel it.  My scalp, tingling and in somewhat painful fashion and it only draws MORE attention to my head and then I want to pull or twirl.  Blogging this is helping my process.  It is in fact, keeping me hands busy, which is a good thing.

I took a break from knitting, so maybe that's why I've pulled more lately.  I even bought another worry stone to keep with me, but I left it at home.  My fiddle toys sit in a drawer and now I'm back to square one.

Where to go from here.  I was doing soooooo good.  Good enough to not think that I literally rip my hair out because its cathartic, it feels good, it's making my hair more perfect, but having less hair in fact makes me feel less beautiful and more damaged than before.  Granted I don't have this as bad as others, but it does affect my life, my mental processes, my perception of myself, every day.

So just because I still have eyebrows and eyelashes and mostly a full head of hair, doesn't mean I don't have a real problem.  I definitely don't want to have large bald patches.  I need to be mindful and I need to not be angry with myself.  Everyone has a unique journey.

It's silly that my anxious energies come out in this way when I seemed to have solved a lot of my tummy problems.  And then this began.  With me there is always something.

This post doesn't necessarily have a point.  It's more of a vomiting of words to get out what my day today has been so far, in my Trich world.  But I am beautiful, I am loved and so are all of you.

I hope this reaches those who have a similar issue with impulse control and the need to pull.

let's stop the pull, together!

I am taking Hairburst to help me grow my hair and it has worked so far and is the only supplement that doesn't upset my stomach.  Check out their Instagram for lots of hair growth inspo!

@hairburst

You can check my referral link here! http://my.hairburst.com/x/yiAmai






Best,
Alexandria
Tuesday, February 3, 2015

Dog Lover's Tee - Now Available in the ALEXINHWOOD Store!

Feast your eyes on these awesome tees with a cause!  
My Dog Lover's Tees will benefit the 
Best Friends Organization's Initiative, NKLA!

Lot's of colors and style for men and women!
Help me #SaveThemAll and wear a tee in support!

Click here!
To go to the Dog Lover's Tees Page! 

Women's
Tanks for everyone
Men's



Hope you will get on board and join me in raising funds to create 
a NO KILL NATION by 2017!

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Cat Lover's Tee - Back By Popular Demand!

Aaaaannnnnnnndddddd We're BACK!

Now in NEW COLORS and STYLE CHOICES 
for MEN and WOMEN!





Click Here!

These cute shirts are soft and cozy and in fun colors for everyone to enjoy. Each time you wear the alexinhwood CatFace you will know that you personally helped a kitty in need.
Please share this campaign with friends and family and cat lovers everywhere and help me make this a true community effort to support No Kill efforts in Los Angeles.
These shirts will be printed and sent out in 15 days!
25% of funds raised will be donated to the 

STRAY CAT ALLIANCE!








Monday, January 26, 2015

No, You Are Not Crazy, You're Just a Highly Sensitive Person


If you experience the world the way I do, then you are easily overstimulated.  Hunger makes you Hangry, sirens make you cringe and other people’s problems, become your problems.  You can read a room, its mood and feel “fight or flight” right away based on your reading.  Sometimes you need to turn off completely.  Literally shut yourself away under the covers to regroup, turn down the noise and start again.  Sometimes the pain of others, literally causes you pain, headaches or tears.  When someone asks you to go out after a day or work, you rarely say yes, because you need to go home and decompress and disappear before you can think about another thing.  A lot of missed opportunities, a lot of anxiousness, a lot of sadness. 

YOU ARE NOT ALONE AND YOU ARE NOT CRAZY.  

You may be a part of a small part of the population that experiences the world in a very unique way.  You may be a HIGHLY SENSITIVE PERSON or HSP and that’s okay.  While sometimes this uniqueness causes you to feel like you don’t belong or that something is wrong with you, it’s actually a gift.  Once you recognize this gift, you can enable yourself to truly use your sensitivity to your benefit rather than as the detriment it probably has become.

My life without medication is one sensation after another, constant reactions about every little detail of life.  It became so overwhelming to me, myself, that I found a therapist and talked out all about my fears of the world.  I was depressed for some time and now I am not.  But it is still a daily struggle to understanding myself and how I relate to the world as someone who can pick up on the littlest of feelings, details and intuitions. 

I am what they call self-aware but it is a hypersensitivity to that awareness and my concept of self and how I interact with others that bears heavily on me.  I am constantly dissecting, ruminating, worrying, towards a more perfectness.  I could not turn off these thoughts or feelings, even though I did get to talk about them openly once a week.  It still didn’t make me a healthy person.  In this way, I am an advocate for medication if it cannot be done alone with Cognitive Behavioral Therapy and working hard to re-train the brain.  I was in Therapy for 2 years before I spoke to a Psychologist about my anxieties and fears of the world.  Medication has helped me see the world in a more relaxed and healthy way.  I still use my work, my hard training of my mind to overcome some days, but my meds make life livable for me.

For me, being a Highly Sensitive Person, each day was a million onslaughts of emotions and perceptions and thoughts that I could not turn off or put aside.  It ruled me and made me want to not be around people for the fear of all the feelings.  Now I can walk more peacefully without intense fear and emotion about every single detail around me.  I can turn down the thoughts, the pain and the worries of others.

Does any of this sound like you?  Are you likely to avoid situations because they are too loud, too overwhelming or too much?  Do you retreat into yourself when you “just can’t even?” I know the feeling and you are not alone.  I am very much an extrovert.  So being highly sensitive isn't necessarily a shy or introverted quality.  It is just how some of us have managed to handle the world around us.  I am still learning about myself and plan to write much more on the subject. 

Reading the books below is helping me not to be angry with myself for having these qualities, rather be thankful that I experience I colorful chaotic world, that I am working to navigate.  There's so much to see and feel, I just need to slow down and smell the roses.  I also need to not internalize other people's problems.  They aren't mine to solve.  I feel so deeply for the people in my life that I have a hard time learning of their worries and pains and not making them personal and real for me as well.  This causes a lot of sadness and pain and I must learn to use my empathetic tendencies in a healthier way.  Being sad for others, does not make that other person NOT SAD.  But not being sad for them, doesn't mean I don't care.  I can understand and be there, but I must learn to let go of the pains in my heart for those who weep.  I also have noticed that a way to soothe myself in this chaotic world has taken shape in my bouts with Trichotillomania which I have blogged about before.  It makes sense to need to soothe when handling my environments seems so hard.  By understanding that I am an HSP, I feel like I am not alone, I am not crazy, I am aware.  And now I can spend less time punishing myself for feeling so out of place and for knowing that I see the world on an intense and deep level. 


I am currently reading 
The Highly Sensitive Person
by Elaine N. Aron Ph.D.

Click picture -> Amazon

I am also reading

Self-Care for the Self-Aware: 
A Guide for Highly Sensitive People, 
Empaths, Intuitives, and Healers 
by Dave Markowitz


Click Picture -> Amazon


Both of these books are helping me to understand my gifts and to not to hold on to the anxieties that harm my body.  I am learning to let go of the control I wish to have over my environments and to be able to breathe freely and calmly.  I am also working hard to not let my empathy for others rule my emotions or my health.  2015 is the year where I take care of me.  


Feel free to email me with questions! alexinhwood@gmail.com  

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Things That Will Make My 2015 AMAZING!

Stuff is just stuff.  If I didn't have any, I would still be happy.  
BUT some stuff can be super cool awesome and amazing and make life fun.  Some are things, some are lifestyle choices and some are just cuz.

So taking me into 2015 smoothly, satisfyingly and stylish are these amazing STUFFS that I am so happy about.  Share in the joy with me!

My Roommate's VerturoLine Nespresso Machine

If you love amazing frothy espresso and coffee, 
this is your new best friend!
My favorite coffee flavor is: Melozio
My Favorite Espresso Flavor is: Voltesso
I don't even need to add milk or sugar, 
its amazing just the way it is! MMMMM


 
50 SHADES OF GREY
Yum

EATING CLEAN
Trying new recipes with clean ingredients like this

Tomato, Mozzarella, and Basil Quinoa Salad


I plan to work on my fitness and my wellness. I don't want to feel like it's a punishment. Wellness can only be achieved when you take pride in treating your inside and outside with respect and love.  I aim to eat less processed foods and sugars. I want to get better at making salads and different types of meals.  

FIT GIRLS GUIDE

This guide is amazing!  I has a diet guide and daily circuit workouts.  I have been trying the workouts and have seen results.  I also like that it doesn't seem toooo hard but is still a challenge.  
To get the guide you can purchase from the link below
The 28 DAY JUMPSTART includes
FULL MEAL PLAN
* Easy-to-make recipes
* Tons of substitution options
* Grocery lists for each week
* Meal prep schedules
* Flat tummy eating
* Vegan, vegetarian & gluten-free friendly

FULL EXERCISE PLAN
* Beginner-friendly
* No gym required
* No equipment required
* Full body toning
* Burn more calories throughout the day

The Instagram feed offers new workouts all the time and it totally convinced me to get the 28 Day Jumpstart.  
It's pretty awesome.  Good Luck!

      HAPPY 2015! 
Monday, January 5, 2015

Happy Holidays!!

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays from ALEXINHWOOD!





Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Cat Lover's Tee - Designed by Alexinhwood - Pre-Order Campaign



I have partnered with Represent and the Stray Cat Alliance 
to raise some funds to donate to help create a No Kill Nation!



I have been wanting to volunteer and donate to help out kitties for a very long time but wasn't sure how to go about it.  In this way, I turn to my community to get together and make a bigger contribution by working together!

I love my kitties at home as they were also Los Angeles rescues.  I thought that if all the cat lovers out there got together and pre-ordered this cute Tee, we could all do something special and use 25% of the funds to donate to the Stray Cat Alliance.

Represent, where my campaign lives has excellent service, creates quality apparel and is working with me to create the best campaign yet!  

Whether you are a cat lover or not, I bet you know someone that would love this cozy tee, but will also appreciate that we are giving back and helping to provide food, shelter and much more to the stray cats of this nation, not just Los Angeles.  

Let's do this TOGETHER!

1. Go to the campaign:

2. Pre-order a tee!

3. Share with family and friends on social!


#CatLoversTee